Love
Volume Nine
CONTENTS
1970 Hear the Chorus of Nature Sing
Bless Me Lord, I’m Desperate to Live
I Will Dance With You on the Moon
From This Hospital Bed
From this hospital bed there is so little I can do,
But most of all it gives me more alone time with you,
I just studied a red rose from a photograph you took,
Everything you do is magic, you should write a book,
As I studied the red rose, I tried to absorb every bit,
Never realizing how intricate until I took time to study it,
As the rose is beautiful you are beautiful in every way,
Unlike an aging rose you are more beautiful each day,
Every wave and line on each rose petal is perfection,
Such is so of you, my angel, even beyond imagination,
Each worry line upon your angelic face are sadly mine,
There’s no way I could repay you even if given the time,
Your beautiful, naturally red lips remind me of a red rose,
I don’t know why it is so, it is a thought that just arose,
The aroma of a red rose is often a scent from paradise,
But I know the secret to paradise is in your hazel eyes.
The end, for Patti, I love you baby.
Mmmmmm Poem
Before I close my eyes to sleep at night I say a prayer for you,
That all is well within your being because of all you’ve been through,
I softly whisper your name as I think of you, I’ve done this every night,
My sole desire through my life is to be the one kissing you goodnight,
I hear violins playing a tender love song that you and I might dance,
Do angels visit our earth with destiny in hand or is it all by chance,
As we dance and dance around as dancers do I absorb your touch,
It would be nice to find a bouquet of roses that say I love you so much,
I bite my tongue that I resist the sexy things I want to say to you,
From the tip of my tongue I fight the urge to say “it” and follow through,
There is no other I’d rather hold than you although it’s hard to dance,
My desire has overtaken my genius and is whispering take a chance,
With you in my arms I am secure as if you could actually turn the tide,
Not meant as detrimental it’s just that you’re such a little thing I confide,
Mmmmmm is a word not spelled but to me it means “mmmm” let me see,
A thousand “mmm’s” is not enough “mmm’s” to say “I love you” for me.
My Heart Beats for You
A dream came to me as I listened to the rain and started to fall asleep,
I wondered aloud in my sleep is this a dream or a story to make you weep,
So tenderly you laid your beautiful head upon my chest as you slipped away,
Your eyes of hazel looked into mine as you whispered, “thank you for this day,”
The many times I had cheated death and you were taking your final breath,
So ironic this was happening yet painfully sad it was not mine but your death,
I’d never felt so much anguish in all of my life as I felt my chest tear apart,
My love is forever, long ago I made you a promise and I gave you my heart,
As many times as I’ve been hospitalized the odds were it would happen here,
I’ve passed on in this hospital three times, there’s a heaven and hell it is clear,
To see the bright light above as you speed to the light is a joy you know by now,
I screamed for the doctors when you passed out, they must save you somehow,
As I stare at your profile I hear the monitor and I tell myself you’re just asleep,
My loving you has been a gift and I swear it is something I’m going to keep,
So many things you’ve given to me and I know you’re here because of me,
Your trip to the store to get a treat for me has ended in a horrible tragedy,
Your sweet heart has been pierced not by Cupid’s arrow but metal of my car,
I know I will miss you desperately but I will see you in my sleep from afar,
The only words I can think to say, I love you, I’m so sorry, I’ll love you forever,
My surgery is scheduled and I must go now perhaps I’ll see you in the nether,
As they roll me off I watch you on life support and it breaks my heart in two,
Remember me, my angel, have no fear of loneliness for I give my heart to you,
I pray the prayers of a patient about to go under again for the fiftieth time,
I told you I would have at least one more because it can’t end on forty-nine,
It’s funny about surgery because you remember going into a deep sleep,
It’s a sleep that is actually wonderful because you feel it is a sleep so deep,
I pray for you, oh how I pray for you and I tell God that I gave my heart to you,
God understands, I’m sure, because He created you and He loves you too.
I wake and I can’t move as I feel a machine breathe for me as I knew it would,
It’s difficult to breathe and each breath is forced, I’d take a deep breath if I could,
I motion for them to move me into your room and this time the nurses are here,
You’re awake and smiling at me as you tell me they found a heart and it was near,
I said we were a perfect match, a perfect match is what they were looking for,
The concern on your face is showing as you notice I’m on life support once more,
Today I will prove my love to you because this day I officially give my heart to you,
It is my heart beating in your chest, my beautiful angel it was the only thing I could do,
As I woke from my dream I realized I was dreaming of the reality of this day,
I felt the extreme anguish I’d felt so long ago when Uncle Sam called me away,
I made the doctors try to keep me alive so I could see you wake once more,
Now you know, my hazel eyed beauty, that you are truly what I am living for,
In a decision of love I give you my life and I give you the heart beating inside of me,
Long ago I gave this heart to you, and today there’s no doubt I love you completely,
I will be with you forever my angel and I will dance with you until each day is done,
I’m fading away my hazel eyed beauty, I’ll love you forever, we now beat as….one.
The end, a sad but beautiful dream I had. I love you baby.
1970 Hear the Chorus of Nature Sing
Hear the chorus of nature sing melodies so soft and simple of word,
With nature’s whisper more is said than most in a lifetime has heard,
Our Mother Nature can pull a tree from her surface as if it is a weed,
It’s through her that each and everyone of us has a relationship of need,
And here the chorus of nature sings melodies so soft and tender sweet,
When nature whispers it may be more than a whisper if shown complete,
Tonight Mother Nature whispered into the air in the form of a soft breeze,
Our need this night was perfection, for us she softly whispered in the trees,
A tender breeze set the mood for surrender this night so long ago,
Fear was unknown as the night brought perfection for us to know,
Creatures shared the night as echoes of crickets filled the night air,
A kiss delivered by your lips had to come from heaven or near there,
As my heart prepared for the moment to ask you I kissed you more,
So many times my lips parted to say “will you” to fade as I did before,
I place my lips upon your neck as I note your parted lips in the mirror,
So very sure of my words, these were words to be never said in error,
Everything was in motion the moment I decided to ask as I laid in wait,
Love has built so incredibly large in my heart I know that I won’t hesitate,
You’ve asked a number of times “what?” as if you expect me to speak,
And speak I will when the moment is correct and I haven’t grown weak,
To make love with you in the cool Texas air brings pleasure ill described,
Once the night moved forward this was an action of mine to not be denied,
The moment has fallen upon us as we stand on the porch to say goodnight,
“Will you marry me?” Your “yes” has sent me to heaven on a love flight,
I remember in 1965 as I moved away to Dallas I thought of you all the way,
As always I stayed awake as I drove by imagining our future wedding day,
From my hotel room I went to bed and I imaged you had run off with me,
For so many years I dreamed of this and now it will soon come to be.
The end. By Pat
Bless Me Lord, I’m Desperate to Live
Bless me dear Jesus as I’m desperate to continue this wonderful life,
You have gifted it to me and I greatly appreciate my children and wife,
The unconditional love given me by Patti has been given one lucky man,
I am that man and I thank you Lord for that I will do the very best I can,
I realize I have failed to exemplify how a Christian should act while in pain,
Please forgive me for the times I have grown short and acted with disdain,
Bless my wife please and protect her always especially when I’m not near,
I will treat others as you would remembering that in your eyes all are dear.
Bestow your blessings on my children and grandchildren during this time,
If allowed to go on my Lord I will be better at teaching to all that are mine,
For my brothers and sisters I pray for your blessing and understanding,
As for me dear Lord, I will do my best to endure any dues life may bring,
I am ashamed that my actions haven’t shown Your Word in everything I do,
As I endure the many diseases I’ve encountered I will try to act more like you,
Forgiveness I’ve given as I hold no grudges instead I try to understand why,
My life is Yours Dear Lord please guide me in my actions long before I die,
Free will you have given to us that we may have unconditional love to offer,
Thank You My Lord for the unconditional love that has been given me by her,
Until I stood to protect her one evening did I realize the true meaning of love,
Static love has no progress thus I thank You as I’m with the one I dream of.
The end, by Pat.
Lord Jesus please bless me that I may survive another hurdle to return to her arms,
Thank you Lord. June 22, 2015. NW Memorial Hospital.
I Have Soared Like an Eagle
I have soared like an eagle from but a touch of your hand on mine,
A touch so pleasant and smooth it relates to a silken gown so fine,
As I soared high above it all I look below to see you look up at me,
It’s a sensation of sweet elation that has cut the ropes to set me free,
From you flows magic as you have worked magic on a man like me,
The minute I knew that I’d marry you I became better than I should be,
For over fifty five years I’ve attained things beyond my meager means,
You are my dream angel, the one I have always wanted in my dreams,
In this land of magic and visions I see two young lovers as they walk,
Perhaps it’s just a vision but I’d swear I heard a man and woman talk,
It sounds as if they are in love back in a timeline forty-five years past,
So near I must be to heaven as I hear trumpets blare coming fast,
I wonder aloud about this flight I’ve taken courtesy of beautiful you,
How can this be? Surely it must be some wormhole I flew through,
Each dimension in time is there with but a thought I can see it all,
So many different images of you fill the air until I yell stop or stall,
How I knew to yell such a thing is beyond my comprehension right now,
I have been hanging on for so long but you always save me somehow,
I am but tarnished tin with rust that has begun to eat away my structure,
Endurance is my creed as I know well the need to endure for our future,
Ever so deeply I long for your touch once more as I feel a need to soar,
Often I’ve risen too late to reach for your body as you walk out the door,
Without the heavenly touch of your flesh I am no more to walk in the brush,
Let me soar on Eagle’s wings, desperately I need your touch, please rush,
Precious love is safely in a chest at heaven’s door with guardians there,
Love so special it is guarded by muscular archangels with long gold hair,
Precious love is any love for to love is a gift unto itself to receiver and giver,
Because of our intense love just a light touch can produce in me a shiver,
From the clouds I hear a sweet melody of violins, chimes, and harps in unison,
A whisper comes from nowhere and I’m found in your arms to dance as one,
In but a moment I am found holding you in a tight embrace of lover’s dance,
I remember so many years ago when I prayed you’d see me and take a chance,
As always you have sought me out to find me as it was your whisper I heard,
This time my angel as we dance I will whisper the most treasured of word,
Let us dance in tight embrace under an umbrella of twinkling heavenly view,
Even today I feel nervous in my delivery of the special words, “I love you”.
The end, by Pat from hospital room June 22, 2015
For Patti, I love you my precious angel.
A Silhouette of Two
Your silhouette is cast upon the wall like a fine pice of art,
Throughout my abundant life you have been the best part,
From shoreline to Rocky Mountains linking the other side,
No other woman could possibly fill my heart with such pride,
A silhouette of two in tight embrace has flooded the wall,
You in my arms sweet angel is where I want to be on last call,
The night air has filled me with exuberance absent for awhile,
Father Time should arrest his advance while I wear this smile,
First born love saw heartache too soon to survive most said,
Goodbye can stop fresh love yet ours grew stronger instead,
From but a small teardrop of yours signs of love were shown,
From the same teardrop the truth of your heart was known,
I’ve held you in strong embrace and swayed to earthly sounds,
To Mother Nature’s hum we’ve danced as bees made their rounds,
I treasure the nights you’ve given me, both by heart and sexually,
Every year of our marriage has enamored my heart so intensely,
As your tender fingertips trace my anatomy now I feel my need,
My needs and wants are you as my desire for you grows with speed,
Once given from my heart it is evermore love and will never cease,
So intense is your love that each day my desire sees an increase,
Infinite love born of two hearts can’t be understood by most,
Someday a marriage made in heaven will have our Lord as host,
We will renew our vows as relatives for centuries past take part,
And once more, before God and family, I will give you my heart.
The end, by Pat. For Patti. I love you baby 06/23/2015
I Will Dance With You on the Moon
I have walked the streets but I have not felt alone since then,
I returned to you as promised in nineteen seventy so we could begin,
I’ve loved you forever as you know but I have had no doubt since then,
The kiss of return lifted me higher than my discharge at ten ten,
I wish I could tell the world I love you, I hope the website will do for now,
One day we will be fragments of human turned to souls in heaven somehow,
As spirits you and I will fly to places we have desired to see for so very long,
Think of your delight when I can carry you because my legs are again strong,
When we are spirits we will meld our souls to enjoy the depth of love,
I will dance with you as one while we rest on the moon that’s still above,
No longer will I spend my wages on gasoline and a candy bar or two,
You know I loved doing it, I loved you so much nothing kept me from you,
Today we host our niece and we were privileged to show her our family,
Most of all she is now part of our family and with us she will always be,
Spiritually we have melded although flesh still pumps our blood to flow,
I love you so very much, my angel, you are the only love I will ever know.
Within My Frame
Most of the things you do for me are internal and others can’t see,
You ring my bell when no bell is to be rung but you do it for me,
The touch of your fingertips upon my tip can set my soul aflame,
The flame burns intensely hot, it’s a flame unseen but still a flame,
I have your molecules within me just as you have mine within you,
Each grain of the hourglass’ sand carries a memory as it falls through,
Those memories cast upon a canvas would show my story of wonderment,
A story so unbelievable interlaced with the interaction of life’s excitement,
Since seventeen each day in my life has particles of her laced inside,
Unknown to her a reaction was taking place that was not to be denied,
Each noise in the crowd became a part of what I have now become,
Somehow everything was a piece of a part that was making me the one,
Your attraction to me was the electrical charge akin to atoms being split,
When what is one is split a force unknown takes place because we are it,
It wants to remain as one such as the uranium atom wants to be complete,
A force not understood is within you and me so similar to atoms it’s neat,
Every force in the universe unites to act as one to bring apart to reunite,
When I was so far from you mother earth’s magnetic fields used her might,
I felt you, I did, as I walked the mud and heat of a savage land at war,
As nightfall came upon the land each event and thought brought amour,
I have trembled in fear as those much larger beat me physically down,
In other events I have run to protect the downtrodden when bullies abound,
Each event has helped to form the it I am and what courage there is in me,
Many ingredients form the pulp of my base that no one could possibly see,
The little girl with the runny nose that asked me if I’d buy her something to eat,
Within me my father dwells and somehow I know the tears were his treat,
As I’ve danced holding you so tight the embrace is imprinted in my mind,
A lonely tear of departure has placed molecules inside my blood you can find,
Lipstick of color, clear, moisturizers and more have left their color upon mine,
So proudly I left that color upon my shirt and my lips for anything that can remind,
My mother’s heartbreak resides inside my heart and I carry her torment as well,
I am at times a castaway of life’s extreme as sanity teeters inside for a spell,
Gifted me along with my mother’s voices that have yet to speak a word,
I am a part of the Fourth of July party when Korean War Vets were heard,
A time when America loved her servicemen and banners of joy flew high,
I saw the returning heroes and wanted to be one of those men we don’t deny,
I am a piece of peace that came as a result of things I did hidden behind a wall,
Inside my broken heart I carry peace but I carry also pain because of the draft call,
I am the unknown soldier and I am the court-martialed teen that became afraid,
Yes, I am a part of all these parts of men that were heroes or didn’t make the grade,
Once I raised my weapon to fire upon a child but held back until my friend died,
I am now a part of a horrible memory that children kill although it was once denied,
The fear of breast cancer was mine as two tumors were removed from mine,
Men too must face the breast cancer scare and for a week it dwelt in my mind,
Each memory and each grain of sand beneath my feet have created what is me,
But most of all what keeps it all contained is my driven desire of extreme mystery,
For you I must, I pray I will, to be a better man for you and to never let you down,
PTSD has created creatures that dwell deep within but have never seen town,
I am a better man because of she that has left molecules to live within,
I carry remnants of only one inside my heart, it was her heart I did win,
A magical pull will start each day as we depart the place we hold dear,
Once more another ingredient will mix into the mix that keeps me here.
Loving you.
The end, by Pat