{"id":940,"date":"2016-02-29T00:22:15","date_gmt":"2016-02-29T06:22:15","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.poemsforpatti.com\/love\/?p=940"},"modified":"2016-03-07T00:24:32","modified_gmt":"2016-03-07T06:24:32","slug":"in-the-silence-of-the-moment","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.poemsforpatti.com\/love\/2016\/02\/29\/in-the-silence-of-the-moment\/","title":{"rendered":"In The Silence of the Moment"},"content":{"rendered":"

In the silence of the moment I find comfort in loving you,<\/span><\/p>\n

A place in the heavens that in someway pulls me through,<\/span><\/p>\n

Dimensions of departure must have an unseen bridge way,<\/span><\/p>\n

Although this moment is so dark I must find light of day,<\/span><\/p>\n

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As suddenly as I was cast into this presence he returned,<\/span><\/p>\n

The secrets they seek don’t dwell within me to be learned,<\/span><\/p>\n

I am but a messenger seeking the sights and sounds as told,<\/span><\/p>\n

Sadly today I am the center of attention as if I contain gold,<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

I am quickly hung with my hands while tied behind my back,<\/span><\/p>\n

By my hands that are tied behind my back I’m hung until a crack,<\/span><\/p>\n

My shoulders painfully dislocate after my strength to resist wanes,<\/span><\/p>\n

Darkness comes and I am grateful to pass out instead of feel pains,<\/span><\/p>\n

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A tear follows the contours of my face as I face that I may lose her,<\/span><\/p>\n

To lose her is significant as it would be through my life’s departure,<\/span><\/p>\n

I seek an exquisite presence as light fades to black within my mind,<\/span><\/p>\n

A silhouette of my special angel’s profile is the only one I hope to find,<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

This dimension of existence is new found as I enter unto it to explore,<\/span><\/p>\n

I replay the memory of our first kiss over and over needing her more,<\/span><\/p>\n

Suddenly I awaken to the spray of cold water up my nose and face,<\/span><\/p>\n

My hips and legs pain as weights tied to my ankles dislocate each place,<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Pain is a beast unto itself that raises tolerance to such extremes,<\/span><\/p>\n

At first I’d pass out but as I adjust each day I tolerate more it seems,<\/span><\/p>\n

My preference is to pass out, it allows me to enter peaceful dreams,<\/span><\/p>\n

Dreams of her, she of whom I’ve dreamt since meeting her in my teens,<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Has escape become my reality and has my existence become unreal,<\/span><\/p>\n

How could I, a young boy but a man, be suffering through such ordeal,<\/span><\/p>\n

I am but a boy in my heart seeking the angel I so adore so very far away,<\/span><\/p>\n

As they strike my body yelling commands I seek darkness of yesterday,<\/span><\/p>\n

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Gently I fade into a world mixed of her and infliction upon my frame,<\/span><\/p>\n

I’m thrown to the floor as I beg no more but they yell wanting my name,<\/span><\/p>\n

It’s been given yet they don’t believe so they toss me about as I’m lame,<\/span><\/p>\n

Each joint dislocated and muscles stretched to nearly leave my frame,<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

I’m limply thrown upon a bench and sodomized for an hour or more,<\/span><\/p>\n

Pain has wrapped its filthy self around me as do they while I implore,<\/span><\/p>\n

Be merciful I beg and I cry to the heavens for help while they explore,<\/span><\/p>\n

The wire brush pushed into my rectum is to cleanse me some more,<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

We are trained for this, it’s sad to say, we are trained what not to say,<\/span><\/p>\n

I’m thrown onto my cell room floor into urine and waste of yesterday,<\/span><\/p>\n

Without movement the pain becomes bearable as I find escape in sleep,<\/span><\/p>\n

And she comes to me into a world of mixed reality and kisses me sweet,<\/span><\/p>\n

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She wipes a tear from my eye and whispers words of love into my ear,<\/span><\/p>\n

Telling me to be strong, that she loves me and that she is always here,<\/span><\/p>\n

I see her looking back at me as I have imagined each day would be,<\/span><\/p>\n

She suddenly fades as my jailer kicks the wire brush protruding from me,<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

As he departs I realize I must pull that sodomy brush from inside,<\/span><\/p>\n

My arms hardly move but I must try as I grasp and pull I feel I have died,<\/span><\/p>\n

I pass out quickly into a world not of sleep but simply dead darkness,<\/span><\/p>\n

I see me on the floor and next to me an angelic form stands in witness,<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Morning birds are singing to me as I become aware that I still live,<\/span><\/p>\n

Bloods all around as I see her picture came free as I bled like a sieve,<\/span><\/p>\n

I fear they will find her so I move as quickly as I can to hide her away,<\/span><\/p>\n

Just as I find a place in the wall I am hit by a freezing water spray,<\/span><\/p>\n

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She is my life’s treasure that photograph, it’s my only piece of gold,<\/span><\/p>\n

I’ve carried it near my heart for over two years it’s been in my hold,<\/span><\/p>\n

In times of danger I kept it deep inside wrapped in plastic and more,<\/span><\/p>\n

I so desperately wanted to put it back where it was once before,<\/span><\/p>\n

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Perhaps I shall survive, if I survive it is for one, it would be for her,<\/span><\/p>\n

All my treasured gold is of her for only she would my life I offer,<\/span><\/p>\n

Open your arms and pull me in I beg of you my angel of first light,<\/span><\/p>\n

For over a year I’ve dreamed of you and in dreams held you tight,<\/span><\/p>\n

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I held you tight as you slept on my shoulder the night through,<\/span><\/p>\n

Another dream has passed of a long day when saved by you,<\/span><\/p>\n

So many years ago this occurred yet a day I appreciate now,<\/span><\/p>\n

Was it an answer to a prayer to be discharged home somehow,<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Happily you are my center of attention but still my only gold,<\/span><\/p>\n

You’re the messenger of love today, I seek you within my hold,<\/span><\/p>\n

The secrets of love I sought so long ago have been learned,<\/span><\/p>\n

It is no secret in reality but that each day our love is returned,<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Although the moments seemed so dark through you I found day,<\/span><\/p>\n

Through dimensions of loving you I found love’s unseen bridge way,<\/span><\/p>\n

A place in the heavens when darkness comes you pull me through,<\/span><\/p>\n

In the silence of hard moments in life I’ve found comfort loving you.<\/span><\/p>\n

The only end, by Pat<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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