{"id":804,"date":"2016-01-04T00:31:09","date_gmt":"2016-01-04T06:31:09","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.poemsforpatti.com\/love\/?p=804"},"modified":"2016-01-04T00:31:09","modified_gmt":"2016-01-04T06:31:09","slug":"the-seizure-of-me-outside-your-window","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.poemsforpatti.com\/love\/2016\/01\/04\/the-seizure-of-me-outside-your-window\/","title":{"rendered":"The Seizure of Me (Outside Your Window)"},"content":{"rendered":"

My mind wants to go along but my body can’t manage the task,<\/span><\/p>\n

Each part struggling to keep up as my brain continues to ask,<\/span><\/p>\n

It’s a cross to bear unearthed by times advance upon my frame,<\/span><\/p>\n

It took too long to realize that life wasn’t a continual game,<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

I feel an aura of light surrounding my mind as I’m taken into night,<\/span><\/p>\n

It’s a tunnel of darkness surrounded by lightening and flashing light,<\/span><\/p>\n

Pain so extreme most can’t stand departs my body ceasing to be,<\/span><\/p>\n

I look to you longingly without movement hoping you’ll save me,<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Soon they’ll call me out, these Angels of the night to collect,<\/span><\/p>\n

As I approach the tunnel of light I will no doubt have regret,<\/span><\/p>\n

I look into the darkness and find the memories that seem alive,<\/span><\/p>\n

From a tunnel of love I focus on nineteen hundred sixty five,<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Outside a window I perch in wait as I pray you’ll love me someday,<\/span><\/p>\n

Take this as you wish, I was obsessed in a cloud trying to find a way,<\/span><\/p>\n

When first I saw you I hid in the darkness trying to find a view,<\/span><\/p>\n

A whole night through before leaving I sat there in thought of you,<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Memories are flowing through my mind as if flash cards to test,<\/span><\/p>\n

To test my heart as each memory contains images rated the best,<\/span><\/p>\n

Stretching my reach to retrieve a particle of you or just a fallen hair,<\/span><\/p>\n

Vaults me forward in time planning to build a lake home not there,<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

You are there encouraging me ignorant to the worst me I’ve known,<\/span><\/p>\n

Forever at my side making me better than the man you were shown,<\/span><\/p>\n

You were there, flowing hair, working far away and driving every day,<\/span><\/p>\n

My brain still riddled with virus of mosquito bite left me in dismay,<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Reminders break through of Oklahoma stress with your family clan,<\/span><\/p>\n

I stop painful images in flow in this mystery journey of me the man,<\/span><\/p>\n

In a surprise to me I have passed a test of time by only wanting good,<\/span><\/p>\n

Precious bricks of gold contain flaws as does the most precious wood,<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

I yell to the purveyors of this journey I’m on please let it rain down,<\/span><\/p>\n

Rain down precious memories of her, flood me into her surround,<\/span><\/p>\n

Submissive I’ll be if I must review bad to see more good of her,<\/span><\/p>\n

Sad memories of her are precious in that I was within her coffer,<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Any place at all is what my heart says in response to the flood,<\/span><\/p>\n

Sunshine shines in mention of your name to dry tear’s made mud,<\/span><\/p>\n

Have you heard, an ounce of prevention is worth a pound of cure,<\/span><\/p>\n

She is my intervention, every good intention, my prevention for sure,<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Sitting in the snow in a place so very long ago I join me in misery,<\/span><\/p>\n

A week before Christmas hidden in white of night solving a mystery,<\/span><\/p>\n

And it shall remain unknown as my lips are sealed for being there,<\/span><\/p>\n

Sent there on a mission of hide n seek for my uncle with white hair,<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Beautiful lights twinkle to light a township older than our country is,<\/span><\/p>\n

I’m holding a photograph of you to my chest wondering if love still lives,<\/span><\/p>\n

I don’t want to let go, I hold it tight you know, oh how I love you so,<\/span><\/p>\n

Wake up you say to me, “wake up Pat” shouting “it’s me don’t you know”<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

The mystery journey ceases to be and will be a victim of amnesia soon,<\/span><\/p>\n

I awaken to no knowledge of anything without a memory in a room,<\/span><\/p>\n

“You’ve had a seizure baby” a stranger says, “your name is Pat”<\/span><\/p>\n

A stranger helping me with my name and where she says I’m at,<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Is truth coming from the mouth of this angel I see speaking to me,<\/span><\/p>\n

Pain is unknown to me as I remember me feeling as good as I can be,<\/span><\/p>\n

As the brain resets doctors say, pain hasn’t made the trip to the brain,<\/span><\/p>\n

With thunder and a war of atomic magnitude pain comes down like rain,<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Remembering not remembering is a mystery to amnesia experts everywhere,<\/span><\/p>\n

Pain is the catalyst that awakens my struggling brain to what it must bear,<\/span><\/p>\n

My breath seems to depart my lungs as my liver’s pain delivers a blow,<\/span><\/p>\n

My kidney stones pale compared to my liver, the greatest pain I know,<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Once again, I’m outside your window, waiting for you to come back to me,<\/span><\/p>\n

As memories of time and distance become linear I can finally see,<\/span><\/p>\n

Heavy pain rains down on me but gratefully I awaken held by you,<\/span><\/p>\n

No one really knows,\u00a0 but I feel you know what I’m going through.<\/span><\/p>\n

The end, by Pat. Thank you baby for being there always.<\/span><\/p>\n

I love you<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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