oo often spoken words are uttered that should never be used,<\/p>\n
Some words so dangerous in meaning that using means abused,<\/p>\n
In a darkened mind that is blinded with pain and extreme confusion,<\/p>\n
I\u2019ve carried liver disease, heart and more, my comfort is a delusion,<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
When I find brightness of day it often dims to quickly fade away,<\/p>\n
I don\u2019t feel like crying, as crazy as I sound it\u2019s self inflicted anyway,<\/p>\n
The halo I knew now has my ankles much like shackles I once wore,<\/p>\n
An undertow has pulled me down or is it a hold to even life\u2019s score?<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Place me upon a hill of life to review my past life perhaps in disgust,<\/p>\n
The failings of me have escalated to erode my flesh as if steel\u2019s rust,<\/p>\n
I\u2019ve handfuls of sins given me by military orders of placement here,<\/p>\n
Disappointment in myself doesn\u2019t offer much cleansing in a lone tear,<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
I\u2019ve been chasing a better man for half a century or more it seems,<\/p>\n
Upon a time I was a better man but bit by bit I tore apart my seams,<\/p>\n
A soft melody written for me lifts my spirit from the tangles of a spell,<\/p>\n
The ill wishes thrust upon me has cast me into the darkness of a well,<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Once a happy cabaret of my own creation it became difficult to play,<\/p>\n
Would you think me unkind to reveal my reality to ease tossing me away,<\/p>\n
I am broken with no pathway of repair nor worth in the eyes of my peers,<\/p>\n
To understand my non-worth is easily understood especially with jeers,<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Allow the tears of absolution to flow down my aged face before I pass,<\/p>\n
Let those that once loved me shed tears upon the deceased of no class,<\/p>\n
Am I now sick from personal ill being inflicting my own guilt upon me,<\/p>\n
Once I stood in light of direction but now even in light I can barely see.<\/p>\n
The end, by Pat.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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