{"id":1565,"date":"2019-11-11T02:12:05","date_gmt":"2019-11-11T08:12:05","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.poemsforpatti.com\/love\/?p=1565"},"modified":"2019-12-09T02:15:45","modified_gmt":"2019-12-09T08:15:45","slug":"my-journey-returning-to-you","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.poemsforpatti.com\/love\/2019\/11\/11\/my-journey-returning-to-you\/","title":{"rendered":"My Journey Returning to You"},"content":{"rendered":"

I knew disappointment so deeply when taken far away,<\/span><\/p>\n

To love as a man had been sewn deep inside of me to stay,<\/span><\/p>\n

And when I wake the greatest secret I keep remains to be hid,<\/span><\/p>\n

I look backwards in time to find a remnant of something we did,<\/span><\/p>\n

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From that remnant of a past with you I find reason to remain,<\/span><\/p>\n

A quick moment in time is all that I need, be it a whispered refrain,<\/span><\/p>\n

Drafted away from all that I know to be trained in combat by hand,<\/span><\/p>\n

I\u2019ll never be one nor will I ever be whole though I try to understand,<\/span><\/p>\n

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Troublesome nights in a jungle so far away beneath a dark sky,<\/span><\/p>\n

Were filled with lonely sounds of a dying soldier\u2019s haunting cry,<\/span><\/p>\n

And the country I love has spit upon the uniform I wear to fight,<\/span><\/p>\n

Hate me for being drafted yet hate the draft doesn\u2019t sound right,<\/span><\/p>\n

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I would carry most any American upon my back as my final deed,<\/span><\/p>\n

With my broken heart pushing life blood to my muscles I will bleed,<\/span><\/p>\n

My bullet riddled body protects his that he may spit upon me again,<\/span><\/p>\n

And when they lay me to rest I will pray they are forgiven for their sin,<\/span><\/p>\n

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But I prayed to not be buried with broken dreams inside my soul,<\/span><\/p>\n

Told God I would endure anything to fulfill my young life\u2019s goal,<\/span><\/p>\n

On my final leave to home I was going to ask for your hand at last,<\/span><\/p>\n

From the first day home it seemed as if my fate had been cast,<\/span><\/p>\n

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For thirty days and nights despair found me no matter where,<\/span><\/p>\n

The things I did were distractions from you to show I didn\u2019t care,<\/span><\/p>\n

One person understood the heartbreak America laid at my feet,<\/span><\/p>\n

But he was gone and at night I would often jog to your street,<\/span><\/p>\n

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My sisters and friends would entertain me as best they could,<\/span><\/p>\n

No matter what done my heart returned to you as it always would,<\/span><\/p>\n

Drinks, dates, parties or girls were sought by me this time around,<\/span><\/p>\n

My only desire was to be with you to share the love I felt we found,<\/span><\/p>\n

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Desperately I wanted to be with you yet no letters and now, no you,<\/span><\/p>\n

My heart belonged to you but after a year I didn\u2019t know what to do,<\/span><\/p>\n

Since I last kissed your lips I served hazardous duty in lonely surround,<\/span><\/p>\n

The slightest thought of you brought teardrops and a familiar sound,<\/span><\/p>\n

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Returned to duty overseas as loneliness overwhelmed my frame,<\/span><\/p>\n

No letters from you or others back home had give me a nickname,<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cNo Mail Pat\u201d was funny to the post office crew but made me blue,<\/span><\/p>\n

Prayers of departure were answered suddenly without even a clue,<\/span><\/p>\n

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As quickly as I prayed to be reunited with you everything changed,<\/span><\/p>\n

How can fate allow two souls so in love to become the estranged,<\/span><\/p>\n

As I ran upon the enemy\u2019s soil they gave chase until I was done,<\/span><\/p>\n

Over three weeks I would be tested and show you\u2019re still the one,<\/span><\/p>\n

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To be with you again I would do anything, then anything came to be,<\/span><\/p>\n

Detainment and abuse so horribly bad that I actually couldn\u2019t see,<\/span><\/p>\n

Somehow someway a love so deep encapsulated me from death,<\/span><\/p>\n

Each time I teetered upon the edge you encouraged my fading breath,<\/span><\/p>\n

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In but a year I captured ten years of age upon my frame, face, and hair,<\/span><\/p>\n

The chiseled frame I had put upon myself shrank until barely there,<\/span><\/p>\n

I had a fear of darkness from nights in combats theater of finality,<\/span><\/p>\n

Trumpet sounds were heard as angels introduce a teenage fatality,<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Fall into my unconscious arms for I await reunion of mated souls,<\/span><\/p>\n

Retrieve my dying frame from becoming a corpse for burning coals,<\/span><\/p>\n

A sadness calls and calls for my heart yet you appear to be real,<\/span><\/p>\n

In my tormented mind are you an appearance that I touch and feel?<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Through prayer and faith I survived to be released to men over there,<\/span><\/p>\n

Waiting with ambulance and men to take me away to somewhere,<\/span><\/p>\n

Joy and rejoice to be free as drugs ease the pain but not of my heart,<\/span><\/p>\n

Clean sheets and a place to lay my filthy head improved me in part,<\/span><\/p>\n

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IV drips to replenish needed fluids awakened my mind to only you,<\/span><\/p>\n

Surgeries to repair me and psychiatric care to repair my state of blue,<\/span><\/p>\n

Everything you are to me is make believe in their belief of how I am,<\/span><\/p>\n

Three months of care was needed for my discharge although a scam,<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

In a masquerade to hide who I am I pretended to believe to go home,<\/span><\/p>\n

Said loving you was generated by war and your love was un-shown,<\/span><\/p>\n

Hush my mind, close your eyes to the protestors signs of blaring hate,<\/span><\/p>\n

They stand in protest of draft yet hate we drafted chosen by war\u2019s fate,<\/span><\/p>\n

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The ribbons I wore torn from my chest by a protestors hateful way,<\/span><\/p>\n

I board the bus to go home with two years of my life taken away,<\/span><\/p>\n

Kisses in dreams carry me away to board the plane home today,<\/span><\/p>\n

My love for you will always be with me no matter what shrinks say,<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

You may love another, my heart cried so loud it echoed deep inside,<\/span><\/p>\n

On a long ago night your kiss goodbye felt so much like love I cried,<\/span><\/p>\n

Home at last and moving away with all hope of seeing you gone,<\/span><\/p>\n

A month of teardrops perhaps moving is best for me to move on,<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

My life of you has always been the right moment at the right time,<\/span><\/p>\n

In front of my home, packed and ready to drive all became sublime,<\/span><\/p>\n

An angel topped the hill and reignited every flame or fire deep inside,<\/span><\/p>\n

No longer will I walk alone in the dark as lonely fears now subside,<\/span><\/p>\n

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Had she worn wings no more beautiful could the appearance be,<\/span><\/p>\n

As if she escaped the night to bring a gorgeous sunrise for me,<\/span><\/p>\n

Her red lips appear to be those sculpted by a great artists hand,<\/span><\/p>\n

So absurd my chosen words are for God is the artist in command,<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Two years of make believe love appearing in dreams I created,<\/span><\/p>\n

May come to life, to be real, to be mine, to at last be celebrated,<\/span><\/p>\n

Once again our minds link as if absent time has fallen through,<\/span><\/p>\n

Our first spoken word to the other are the very same words too,<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

\u201cWhy didn\u2019t you write me?\u201d erased the heartbreak of two years,<\/span><\/p>\n

This brief moment in time has released to the heavens my tears,<\/span><\/p>\n

Her mother had taken my letters unknown to her lonely heart,<\/span><\/p>\n

We were the same now I understand the pain tearing me apart,<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

A promise made to return to you in six months woke my mind,<\/span><\/p>\n

It was Friday the first week in November, look and you will find,<\/span><\/p>\n

Exactly a year latter we were joined to be one yet already we were,<\/span><\/p>\n

A joining of souls took place when we first met and I made an offer,<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

When your schooling is through I\u2019ll give my life and heart to you,<\/span><\/p>\n

Spoken true you stole my heart although you were too young too,<\/span><\/p>\n

Three years earlier we had met when those things took place,<\/span><\/p>\n

And this day I knew I would return to marry that beautiful face,<\/span><\/p>\n

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Throughout our marriage round and round in circles we\u2019ve danced,<\/span><\/p>\n

Long ago I said don\u2019t leave love on the dance floor for its enhanced,<\/span><\/p>\n

For a moment think back and realize 11-7 I promised I\u2019d return to stay,<\/span><\/p>\n

And a year later on 11-7 I promised in a vow that I\u2019d never go away,<\/span><\/p>\n

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For over fifty four years my love has intensified every day for you,<\/span><\/p>\n

Tell me true love please let me hear if your heart feels that way too,<\/span><\/p>\n

Your beautiful form and lack of age is a blessing unknown for most,<\/span><\/p>\n

First married your too young sway was perfect for the west coast,<\/span><\/p>\n

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While you\u2019ve been dreaming I\u2019ve spooned with an angel to sleep,<\/span><\/p>\n

I feel I must as love controls my soul and I promised her life to keep,<\/span><\/p>\n

At times I\u2019ve entered the fray alone to pull you from dangers way,<\/span><\/p>\n

No thought of retreat entered my mind but instead to save the day,<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Every physical pain I\u2019ve known though they are far too many to know,<\/span><\/p>\n

Couldn\u2019t be enough to change or scare my heart influencing me to go,<\/span><\/p>\n

I keep bleeding love when I bleed yet you regenerate love beyond norm,<\/span><\/p>\n

Loving you grows more every day yet I\u2019ve bled enough to lose form,<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Footprints in the snow or those in the sand are symbolic of we two,<\/span><\/p>\n

So long we\u2019re adjoined shadows can\u2019t part to separate me from you,<\/span><\/p>\n

My love goes with you just like the shoreline joins the sand and sea,<\/span><\/p>\n

Our love forms a timeline of life bond to never separate you and me,<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

I want to shine in your heart evermore as I was broken once before,<\/span><\/p>\n

America threw me away after I fought her war only you gave me more,<\/span><\/p>\n

A fear of darkness shakes my core to cry for departed teenage men,<\/span><\/p>\n

The things and food thrown on my uniform by protestors back then,<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

PTSD makes me cry as forgetting won\u2019t come but remember stays,<\/span><\/p>\n

And you wake my eyes to an angels glee to brighten unhappy days,<\/span><\/p>\n

Your hand in mine and mine in yours pull me from the fray of hell,<\/span><\/p>\n

Sexiness fills your form unknown to you yet your body does it well,<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

I\u2019ll be the first to kneel at your side when you fall and last to stand,<\/span><\/p>\n

If you need me to hold you or kiss the boo boo away take my hand,<\/span><\/p>\n

What the draft took away affected you too, now I do understand,<\/span><\/p>\n

I\u2019ll love you forever and you me, our love has become truly grand,<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

My hands now shake as age and war takes dues most every day,<\/span><\/p>\n

Yet I look forward to waking with you to hear the first thing you say,<\/span><\/p>\n

And touch your breasts as I place kisses on your face that\u2019s not old,<\/span><\/p>\n

I\u2019m dancing in heaven with thoughts of celebrating our years of gold.<\/span><\/p>\n

The end. For Patti by Pat.<\/span><\/p>\n

49th anniversary poem<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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