{"id":1398,"date":"2018-10-05T00:30:59","date_gmt":"2018-10-05T05:30:59","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.poemsforpatti.com\/love\/?p=1398"},"modified":"2018-10-05T00:30:59","modified_gmt":"2018-10-05T05:30:59","slug":"the-story-of-a-photo-for-desperate-times","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.poemsforpatti.com\/love\/2018\/10\/05\/the-story-of-a-photo-for-desperate-times\/","title":{"rendered":"The Story of a Photo for Desperate Times"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">In desperation one day I searched for my photograph of you,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">The draft called my name but there was nothing I could do,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">For over two years I\u2019d been loving you although from far away,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">My dream of you loving me will have to wait for another day,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Allowed but toiletries, a shirt and slacks there wasn\u2019t much to pack,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Although I hoped and prayed I wasn\u2019t sure that I would be back,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">One thing I\u2019d bring no matter what was my photograph of you,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">It\u2019s the one thing that I had to have since my loving you was true,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Angry at myself for being so careless with such precious gold,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">At last I found your beautiful photograph it was now in my hold,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">An anxious tear fell away as I kissed my mother and family bye,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Perhaps it\u2019s best you weren\u2019t there to see as I would surely cry,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">I\u2019d dreamed of you every night since I had moved so far away,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">The war was raging so my exemption lost its value on draft day,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Oh how I wanted to hold you when you came by the club last week,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">But as usual when it came to you my smooth mouth couldn\u2019t speak,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">That photograph would be my link to everything I loved back home,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">As I boarded the bus I saw your car drive by, if only you had known,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">My words of loving you were words of truth each time I said it to you,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">You thought my words were flirting words that for sure were not true,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">It broke my heart to go away leaving you here to play and have fun,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">But deep within my heart it would be unfair to expect life of a nun,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">So filled with fear you\u2019d find another love I feared it more than death,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">With my photograph of you I had started a letter for my dying breath,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Each morning of boot camp found me tracing my finger on your face,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">I\u2019d pray for you with all of my heart as my finger made it\u2019s final trace,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Your mother didn\u2019t allow us to date because I had four years more age,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">It was so strange that upon my return she changed rules at that stage,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">You refused a date with your boyfriend to visit Amarillo with me,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">At last I could be with you and gave you a Sailor hat we wear at sea,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Navy rules said do not to give away the hats or prepare for a penalty,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">It was worth any risk to give it when you said return and I will be free,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">That night I held your picture as love raced through my veins all night,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">It was on that very night that I realized dreams of loving you were right,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">I would return to you in two short months after completing my school,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Answered prayers allowed us to date and I became a love sick fool,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">The greatest kiss of my lifetime came upon my second day back,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Our first kiss gave my life the reason to fight huge odds in a stack,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">But this time my kiss goodbye could truly be the kiss known as last,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Upon leaving new orders of riverboat gunner meant my fate was cast,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">My first day on board with trigger in hand gunfire came at my head,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Hesitance to return fire by a rookie may have caused men to be dead,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">I was a frozen rookie that day and it now plays over inside my head,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">With your photo near my heart I didn\u2019t pray for love but peace instead,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Most of the dead were teenagers drafted away from the life they knew,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">War is a horrible thing that people of politics should fight the war too,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">I was a rare animal in Vietnam to be a sailor wearing olive drab attire,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">With jock itch assaulting me my crotch, toes, and chest were on fire,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Unbearable heat mixed with high humidity made cooling off a hard task,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Misery was boots filled with mud and rocks along with a broken flask,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">I stunk so bad I truly feared you would smell me and never again touch,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Pot didn\u2019t help to calm my nerves anymore perhaps I smoked too much,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">At this point I\u2019m lonely, oh so very lonely from isolation in my life,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">One thing I don\u2019t have to worry about is a dear John from my wife,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">I chose not to have deep romance while serving the draft during war,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Yet I\u2019m so deeply in love with her and I know she is all I am living for,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Her photograph is dear to my heart as are the strands of her hair,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">The tender part of me misses her horribly, I worry for her back there,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">But as a soldier I\u2019m scared to death with bombs and napalm in the air,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">As a man I am about as low as low can fall it seems I\u2019m in death\u2019s stare,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Last night I held her picture to my chest as if we were in tight embrace,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">My mind took me far away to a small Texas town and my favorite place,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">I have a favored place back home just like all of us lonely dreamers do,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">If only you could understand that when I say I\u2019m in love with you it\u2019s true,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">I\u2019ve told your photograph many times of plans to make you my wife,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Somehow I think you love me and I pray to survive this war\u2019s strife,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Your beautiful face is on my mind for more time than it really should,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">As I lay in the creature infested mud I think of kissing you if I only could,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Orders came just yesterday to depart from this hell for a Navy school,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">I\u2019ll be trained in various ways and I\u2019m to learn every survival rule,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Six weeks is all it took for my orders to leave this place of Marine\u2019s hell,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">The Marines are a patriotic group trained to fight as if under a spell,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">I will always hold special my time with that tremendous group of men,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">We often transported Marines destined for combat soon to begin,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">They seemed invincible those young men yet I know that\u2019s not true,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Each time combat came to be those patriotic men always lost a few,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Training and school was very hard now my orders send me away,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">I pray for you with all of my heart as I remember our kiss that day,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Your photograph has been my constant companion and link to you,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">I\u2019m scared to death if truth be known, can I do as I\u2019m ordered to do,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">My orders came as a surprise to me but I shouldn\u2019t be surprised,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">I\u2019ve been ordered to report to a top secret Navy base to be utilized,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">My hands, my legs, and my mind are now strong beyond my norm,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">To be honest I no longer recognize my new body of chiseled form,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Time seems to drag on yet at times it is beyond the speed of light,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">I\u2019ve been across Europe and beyond to help America keep her might,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Your photograph has been stored in a secret place of my very own,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">My precious treasure is what your photograph means to me if known,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">It\u2019s the only thing I treasure that\u2019s of value in my heart and mind,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Many times I\u2019ve been alone in a country ordered to search and find,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">As insane as it sounds I\u2019ve retrieved your photo for a tender kiss,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">I\u2019ve loved you since I first laid eyes upon you please remember this,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Sleeping on the ground hidden away behind timber and debris,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">I remove the foil wrapped photo of you from the rear of yes, me,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">I hold you tenderly close to pray happiness for you of which I plea,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">My heart longs for you as my eyes cry for you and I fear we won\u2019t be,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">The things I\u2019ve done have hardened who I am or who I was once,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Dreams I had a year ago now seem an eternity since it was once,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">When I returned home as promised you were nowhere to be found,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">In three short weeks I had to return surrounded by death all around,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Oh Lord I silently prayed, please let me feel her love once more,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">My life, my every breath is hers externally as she is what I live for,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">To her I surrendered my heart in a kiss brought by fate\u2019s love guidance,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">In a waltz of lovers bond we became one under a love spell dance,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Unknown to her I vowed my soul to her as a kiss lifted us to heaven,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">A first day in paradise and I prayed for love to fill the remaining eleven,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">My greatest memories of my life were those days spent with you,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">I survived Vietnam twice and recon duties across the globe too,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Your photograph became more dear with each hardship and day,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Each danger I survived brought me closer to you in a special way,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">You were you for those days of uninhibited truth of the real you,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">My heart exploded with deep love that moved into my soul too,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">It had been over a year since I held you in my ever so lonely arms,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">I feel those twelve days last with you saved me from all that harms,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">My precious bit of gold is that photograph although it\u2019s showing wear,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Two trips to Nam on temp duty have put gray into my jet black hair,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">I\u2019m nearly spent as a man by jumping behind the line too many times,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Our primary duty on this German base is to watch enemy swines,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Your photo just spent almost a month alone with me back home,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">I\u2019m in shock at your absence since I promised to return, I\u2019m so alone,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">I held your photo dearly as I slept on the plane returning me here,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">AWOL since my request to attend my nephews funeral didn\u2019t clear,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">I served four days, was demoted, and new orders troubled my mind,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Eerie feelings of true fear came over me making courage hard to find,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Depression has filled my soul as I\u2019m in great fear you now love another,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">I didn\u2019t receive any letters from you or my family, not even my mother,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Tears are now a sad part of my routine as my heart is amiss with a miss,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">I\u2019m more weak child than warrior as I was in desperate need of your kiss,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Desperate prayers fell from my lips chased by teardrops to the ground,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">\u201cNo mail Pat\u201d has been hung on me as a gag but to me it\u2019s a sad sound,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">I prayed that I be spared more duty with parachutes, guns, and such,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Maybe I\u2019d break my back or get shot, I wanted to leave so very much,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">I wrote two letters to you of which you never replied, it hurt me so deep,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Every time I vowed my love, sincerity flowed with truth, I now weep,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Before I packed my things I wrote my final words to be given to you,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Should I perish I want you to know no other man could love you like I do,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">I\u2019ve held your picture every night to touch your beautiful angel face,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">I tell of my numerous idiosyncrasies such as how your face I trace,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Truly I am so very sorry for scaring you away with the words I wrote,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">A fool does foolish things and dearest Patti I fear I am a sinking boat,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Please attend my funeral service if you receive this letter from my Dad,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">I wrote poems about you as you are the only beautiful inspiration I had,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Your photo is gold to me, I keep it deep inside me, it was a secret untold,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">It\u2019s so dear to me that I want to be buried with your photo in my hold,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">I fear my new assignment for numerous reasons if only you knew,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">It\u2019s a repeat of one some time ago, it\u2019s against the rules to do two,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Recon is dangerous if outed on duty, a chase can occur and I\u2019m off,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">To be offed is to die, or \u201cI\u2019m off\u201d is to run being chased don\u2019t scoff,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Plus I\u2019m worn and don\u2019t feel right perhaps your picture to view,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Was released from the brig and there\u2019s things I still need to do,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">I\u2019m sneaking through this time so I\u2019m relieved there\u2019s not a jump,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Never liked it and never will but departure is 05:00 when I\u2019m a grump,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Every wrong has befallen me as if I\u2019ve been gifted times that are bad,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">A change in schedule found me packing a chute and leaving what I had,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">It\u2019s a fairly odd thing to have happen and something made me wonder,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Impossible to explain but not right in my mind, as subtle as thunder,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">The chase came just as I feared and I wonder was I the cause,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">I\u2019m exhausted from running for hours I wish I could press pause,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">My photo had moved because I passed gas forcing it to move,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Panic has filled my every pore so I need to regroup and to remove,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">The enemy has me now and I fear I\u2019ll spend my remaining life far away,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Siberia has been overheard but why I\u2019m still alive is for what I didn\u2019t say,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">To tell all you know will remove your head or have a bullet go through,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Their thinking is that I will reveal all after freezing temps turn me blue,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">The beatings are extremely severe as I can hardly move a limb,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Your photograph is safe and secure hidden in the wall behind trim,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Every day I\u2019ve been beaten until I pass out in a mercy gift from God,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Passing out is a defense mechanism although it sounds a bit odd,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Slowly I crawled through the feces, blood, and urine to bring you out,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">You are so beautiful on my day three of torture and what tortures about,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">During interrogation I found out the true date and I\u2019m totally blown away,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Seven days have gone by not the two or three a dorky nut would say,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Both of my nuts are extremely swollen so maybe we won\u2019t have children,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">It\u2019s not a choice if made sterile by beating from the enemy\u2019s countrymen,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">Yet I would prefer that I decide instead of a ball bat butcher of a man,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">It\u2019s in the AM of another day and I study your image every moment I can,<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; font-size: 14pt;\">If that photograph could speak it would tell a story of bitter woe,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Alice; 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